Chasing Failure

Sadly, this is my last blog of the school year. I've absolutely loved writing this blog and trying all sorts of new things that I normally would have never done. Writing this blog has really helped me get out of my comfort zone and actually introduced me to things I really enjoyed such as paintball and cooking. There were certain things I did such as drawing and public speaking that I really thought I would be terrible at but in the end, they turned out ok. I normally stray away from things I'm bad at instead of working on them in order to improve and I no longer want to do that. After writing this blog, I'm going to strive to try new things, embrace failure, and try again and again until I'm successful. Who knows, maybe I'll continue this blog through the summer.

Public Speaking Background:   I am terrified of public speaking. In middle school, we used to do Spanish orals and I couldn’t even eat two days before because I would be so nervous. It's one of my biggest fears and I honestly have no idea why. Every time I do it my stomach starts to hurt, my voice gets super shaky and I can barely even stand up, it's terrible. Last week at church someone came up to me and basically asked me to share my life story in front of the church which has like 400 people and when she asked I almost had a heart attack. My Prediction: I think leading up to service I’m going to be terrified and try to think of any way possible to get out of it but in the end, I’ll get out there and do it. I’ll definitely be super nervous but I think when I’m actually on stage, I’ll realize it’s not as bad as I thought. The Process: Last week, every time I thought about going on stage, I would get soooo nervous. I couldn’t stop thinking about it! I wrote eve