Public Speaking Background:
I am terrified of public speaking. In middle school, we used to do Spanish orals and I couldn’t even eat two days before because I would be so nervous. It's one of my biggest fears and I honestly have no idea why. Every time I do it my stomach starts to hurt, my voice gets super shaky and I can barely even stand up, it's terrible. Last week at church someone came up to me and basically asked me to share my life story in front of the church which has like 400 people and when she asked I almost had a heart attack.
My Prediction:
I think leading up to service I’m going to be terrified and try to think of any way possible to get out of it but in the end, I’ll get out there and do it. I’ll definitely be super nervous but I think when I’m actually on stage, I’ll realize it’s not as bad as I thought.
The Process:
Last week, every time I thought about going on stage, I would get soooo nervous. I couldn’t stop thinking about it! I wrote everything out and practiced it over and over because I wanted to be able to look up at the audience while I was speaking and not just look at my paper. The night before, I tried to print it out and my printer broke!! I started to panic because the only option was to print it out in light blue ink that I could barely read. That night I couldn’t sleep at all!! It took me forever to actually fall asleep because I was so nervous and then for some reason I woke up at 5:45 on Sunday morning!! I couldn’t even eat breakfast because I was so nervous.
The Turn Out:
Finally, the time had come. I was standing behind the stage, my heart was beating out of my chest, and then they called my name. I thought I was going to pass out. I walked out with my notes in hand and everyone started clapping. This made some of my nerves go away but I was still super nervous. I began to read and honestly as it went on I got less and less nervous. I ended up looking at my paper a lot because when I'm on stage I completely blank out. After I finished, everyone clapped and came up to me and congratulated me which was super gratifying.
What I Learned:
Even though I didn't get over my fear of public speaking. I think I improved because I felt a little bit less nervous when I was up on stage.
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